Weekly Update: I am happy go say I was down .2lbs this week for a new rural of 49.2lbs. I'm starting to notice a 'pattern' that has been with me since I started this journey. Whenever I get close to a big goal, I manage to self sabotage and do something (or many mini things to throw me off course). Last week I got very close to my 50lb goal. Within a pound, and pretty much from the second I set the goal of "50" by the next week I could feel a pang in my stomach of self sabotage. While it wasn't intentional, a part of me knew it was there the second I set the goal. The good news is, I've learned to love and learn from the ups and downs, and next time I get close to a goal, I'm going to work on some new coping mechanisms to reach that goal without getting in my own way.
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This week was definitely a weird one in my personal life as well. In hindsight, I think it may have caused some of my 'self sabotage'. It officially marked the last day in my 'Corporate Employment' life. Have you ever been so excited about a change and thought about it for months (or even years), but then when the moment comes to change, you panic? Well that was me this week.
Here is my cubicle, 10 years worth of history either thrown out or repurposed. While I'm beyond excited to be pursuing my career in fitness, I'm also petrified at the same time. I keep telling myself that anxiety in the pit of my stomach is what's going to lead me to big things, so here's to new beginnings!
Regardless of the work and stress around my questionable eating habits this week, I still managed to have one of those weeks where you start to really look in the mirror and love what you see. This photo below was taken for one of my online accountability groups - it was 'proof' that I had finished my workout (I forgot to take one right away, so this is me on my way back up to my desk - taking 8 flights of stairs!).
This quote really speaks to me, having been overweight the majority of my youth (until about age 20), when I first lost weight (60lbs in college), I would yo-yo up and down and was never really happy with myself. I always had '5 more pounds' or 'needed to firm my arms' and never really appreciated my body and what it could do and how it had transformed. This past journey to drop the 100+ lbs that I had put on during and after my pregnancy has taught me so much more about my body and really loving it. I look back at photos when I was 130lbs and convinced I should be 117lbs (because that's what the BMI chart said), and I wish I could talk to the girl in the photo and help her realize how beautiful and strong she really was.
I'm not sure if it's the magnitude of weight I gained this time, or the fact that my perspective has changed now that I'm a mother, but I really cherish every single pound I lose and every fitness victory I have. I'm still very close to my prior 'highest weight' but I love myself so much more than I did when I was at my lowest weight, funny how that happens when you let yourself change your perspective.
Despite my food challenges, I had a fun fitness victory this week. I finished Month 1 of my Insanity Max 30 program. The workouts have been nothing short of intense, but also so much fun. It feels so good to have accomplished 30 straight days of no excuses. I'm excited for the next 30!
Here are my actual Day 1 and Day 30 results. I didn't think I'd see a change, but I actually notice some small changes!
Another moment here of feeling super proud and beautiful - me and my little guy after a visit to the Boston Museum of Science. I can't believe how fortunate I am to get to spend every day with him from now on!
In food news, here are some of the fun things that have come up this week! This recipe a friend posted that she uses as a 21 Day Fix Recipe. It looks amazing! Although, with myself I don't think I can have anything (even if it's a healthier option) in the house that tastes like cookie dough. Watch out!
This is a splotchy photo because I took a photo of my computer screen, but it's a fun view of what a 'day in the life of the 21 Day Fix' looks like. I put together a sample plan for what a day's worth of food for someone 170-195lbs would look like. You'd be amazed at how much food it is!
Here's an example of one of the yummy fix recipes a friend came up with. It's an apple, with 2 tsp of melted peanut butter and one 'orange' container of coconut. Delish!
And then of course there are my favorite Brussels Sprouts - I can't get enough of these things.
This one is also a great recipe, and super easy. It's very 21 Day Fix friendly and barely takes any time to prep. It's a bag of frozen veggies (corn/pea/carrot mix is what I use) with a cup of dry quinoa that has been cooked, salt, olive oil and pepper. Mix up and serve warm or cold (I like cold). So easy, and everyone loves it!
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